I Need to Apologize (Explicit)

[Oberst W. Klink]

*places his other hand on Hogans chest again and bends down to him*
What I see is so much ... Better than I imagined ...Robert.
*Suddenly feels his old anxiety come back when he speaks Hogan's first name*
*Tries to will it away and concentrates on kissing Hogan again*
*Licks the inside of his lips and sucks the tip of his tongue then lets his hand slip under Hogan's waistband*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*has managed to slip his hand inside Klink’s pants and massage him but stops at those words*
"You...you've imagined being with me before today?"
*blinks in surprise. He's been told by other people that he's attractive, but never seen it himself*
*gives Klink a lopsided grin as he resumes his earlier task*
"Damn, I sure wish you'd said something sooner!"
*groans when his tongue is sucked on but tries to focus on giving kisses*
*whimpers when the kommandant touches him there for the first time*
*Channels all of his self-control and gently removes Klink’s hand from his pants*
"We need to take this somewhere more private. I don't want either of us to get hurt once we get going...or to be interrupted, for that matter. That would be very bad."
*looks at him through hooded eyes*
"Besides, I want you to feel comfortable giving me instructions. I've never done this kind of thing with a man before."
*carefully wiggles out from underneath him and gets to his feet*
*helps Klink up and kisses him, then gives him a nudge*
"Go get things ready for us in your bedroom while I grab our clothes and lock the door."
*does all of that before walking into said bedroom*
*closes and locks that door too*
*gives Klink a quick striptease while he's getting naked, both to be a flirt and so he can see the reaction*
*lies down on the bed next to him so he can give the kommandant another kiss*
*places Klink’s hand back where it'd been earlier*
*begins massaging him in return, speaking in a slightly breathless tone while he's exploring*
"Now, where were we?"

- Two hours later -

*wasn't surprised to discover Klink had known how to pleasure a man quite well*
*was surprised he'd been offered the chance to be the one giving pleasure versus receiving it*
*is now lying on his side next to Klink on the bed, his head resting in the crook of the kommandant's shoulder. Looks like the cat who ate the canary*
"Thank you, Wilhelm. I really needed that. Wanna do it again at some point too."
*softly kisses him*
"How are you holding up? I didn't hurt you or anything, did I?"
*expression changes to one of concern*
"I did my best to be gentle..."

[Oberst W. Klink]

*has his nose buried in Hogan's hair feeling better than ever since the war started*
*But when the high of sex fades an anxious feeling starts spreading in his stomach*
*When Hogan seems to notice that something is off embarrassedly sits up and swings his feet out of bed so he doesn't have to look at Hogan*
Don't worry ... Robert *the name still feels very weird in his mouth* I enjoyed myself very much.
*Gets up and puts on his robe*
*Then turns back to the bed hesitating a moment*
*Finally clears his throat and comes to stand in front of Hogan looking at him.nervously*
I was just wondering... If you've never done this with a man before ... *Wanted to say Colonel Hogan but stops himself right in time* why me of all people?!
*His ears become a little red again from embarassment*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*is still naked as a jaybird but doesn't care because he's comfortable with his body*

*props himself up on one elbow while letting his other hand rest on his hip, then bends one knee so it looks like he's doing some sort of erotic pose*

"That's good to hear; I thought maybe I'd done something wrong. For the record, I enjoyed myself a lot too."

*makes zero attempt to hide the fact he's admiring Klink in his robe*

"Why not you? You're not a bad looking guy, Wilhelm. And I...well, I've kinda wanted to do this with you for a while now. Just didn't know how to approach the subject without making things weird. Also, I feel safe with you since I know you won't rat me out to anyone."

*cheeks turn red as he looks down at the bedspread instead*

"Wait, that last sentence came out wrong. Let me try again."

*shyly looks up through his eyelashes*

"Would you lay next to me again, though? It's, uh, it's been a long time since I've been held by anyone." *hastily adds* "Or I could hold you. Just...just stay with me. Bitte?"

*is hoping using one of the few German words all of the prisoners know will convince Klink to say yes. He feels vulnerable at the moment, which isn't something he's used to*

[Oberst W. Klink]

*notices Hogan's posing and grits his teeth, typical Hogan-tactics, distract and flatter*
*asks himself what on earth possessed him to give in to his infatuation with Hogan and put himself in such a vulnerable position.*
*but when Hogan asks him to come back he actually seems genuine and Klink lets himself be charmed once more*
*wonders if the day will ever come when he won't -against better judgement - give in to Hogan*
*sits on the bed and reaches out to Hogan*
*caresses Hogan's cheeck and then rubs his earlobe, something Klink finds very comforting himself*
*even if they are set up for disaster in the end he wishes they had chosen a better time for their first encounter, so they could just stay in bed and cuddle and have sex for at least three days before they inevitably would start fighting again*
*settles down and pulls Hogan into his arms*
*slowly strokes his hair*
Did something happen to make you seek closeness?
It doesn't seem like you to admit to something like that...

[Col. R. Hogan]

*has just stopped blushing when Klink sits next to him*
*subconsciously leans into the kommandant’s touch as his cheek and earlobe are rubbed*
*allows himself to be pulled into Klink’s arms*
"Thank you."
*sighs*
"No, nothing happened. At least not in the sense you're thinking of. I'm...I'm just tired of being locked up, Wilhelm. I wanna be a free man again. I do a lot of worrying, you know?"
*laces his fingers with Klink’s*
"The welfare of my men is always my top priority, of course. That's a given when you're a commanding officer. But then I worry about you, Schultz, Langenscheidt, even your non-fanatical guards. I worry what the Allies will do when -" *quickly changes his wording so it doesn't start an argument* "I mean, if we win."
*sighs again and nuzzles Klink’s chest*
"Unless whoever showed up in that scenario is of a lower rank - or a colonel with less time in grade than me - I'd be given orders that I'd be expected to obey, even if they involved lethal force. It horrifies me. The very thought of looking at you and being forced to...to..."
*voice cracks as he trails off*
*But I wouldn't be able to do it. I really, really wouldn't. All I wanna do protect you and stay in bed forever so we can rock each other's worlds. Oh, and show you Palm Springs someday."
*eyes widen in horror after it dawns on him what he must sound like*
*puts one hand over his eyes and groans, blushing so much his face resembles a ripe tomato*
"Jeez, I can't believe I just told you all of that! You must think I'm some sort of sap now."

[Oberst W. Klink]

*is a bit startled at Hogan's wish to show him palm springs*
*For just how long has Hogan had a crush on him?*
*Is really curious about that but decides to address that another time*
It's ok Robert, I know that kind of worry and concern.
Or else why would I have lied about the supplies...?
*Speaking of which, he really wants to go and check on Carter and Newkirk*
*But he continues to calmly stroke Hogan's hair*
As for ... You being forced to ... do something drastic *tries to suppress a shudder*
That's not realistic, don't you think?
When *and he purposefully says when* that time comes I will turn over the camp with nor resistance. No matter my orders. I'm not a fanatic. There's no point in ordering people to die ...on the last meter, as we say...
I couldn't hold the camp for an hour anyway, with enemy soldiers at the gates and prisoners going rampage inside... *Now he does shudder at the image*
And I'm sure whoever comes to take over won't shoot prisoners who voluntarily surrendered. I mean your people are not... *Wants to say us, but stops himself before it comes out* ...animals, right?

[Col. R. Hogan]

*pulls his hand away from his eyes and slowly opens them*
*is pleasantly surprised that Klink isn't taking the opportunity to make fun of him, especially since he's aware it would be a justified revenge after all of the times he's made fun of the kommandant* 
*is also upset with himself for breaking down like this when he's supposed to be a tough-as-nails officer*
*but can't deny he's enjoying having someone to talk to who understands him, as well as the physical affection*
*subconsciously rubs his head against Klink’s hand, unaware of how content he looks at the moment*
"Not gonna lie, I really thought you were just trying to be prepared so the Red Cross won't come down on your head when you told me that."
*sighs*
"I sure hope not, Wilhelm. Most of us still have honor. Unfortunately, there's always a few people who think you've gotta hate anyone who's not on your side. They're the ones who'd treat you the same way as they'd treat people like Hochstetter...which is wrong. You could never be like him!"
*says the last sentence forcefully as he makes a face*
"Those ones make me mad. Really, really mad. I've gotten yelled at by various COs before because I refuse to think that way. 'Course, they weren't happy I treat Negros the same as white people either, but I could care less. Never could stand bigots of any kind. If you don’t know that about me, you should. The US has a few, um, policies that I don't agree with. You'll see how things are for yourself when we visit. "
*eyebrows shoot up in surprise. He's never heard Klink say anything like that before*
"I figured you weren't a fanatic, Wilhelm. You wouldn't be here with me right now if you were. I don't expect you to relinquish your command post either; I wouldn’t do that to you. However, swapping out the flags would be a good idea. Maybe you and Schultz could light the one that's flying now on fire together."
*reaches up to rub Klink’s earlobe after he shudders, wondering if it's something he likes too. Is feeling protective and wants to offer comfort if he can*
"Most of them wouldn't. The few bad apples I mentioned earlier would, though. Thank goodness there's not that many of them. Besides, I'm good at not listening to people. I've had plenty of practice...both before and after being shot down. I'm sure you've noticed that much."
*chuckles, pressing a soft kiss to Klink’s lips*
"Thanks for listening to me. It's just...there's a lot of confusion going on in my head right now. And I don’t like it. I hate not knowing what to think or do, of feeling powerless to - oh. Ohhh."
*sighs and looks back up at Klink with a stunned expression*
"Is this...is this what I do to you all the time? Make you feel like nothing you say or do matters to anyone?"

[Oberst W. Klink]

*Has to fight the urge to reprimand Hogan every time he calls him Wilhelm*
*Is not used to hearing his first name at all, since there are only like 3 people in the world who are so close to him*
*He also wants to give Hogan a piece of his mind concerning his honour as a german officer when Hogan mentions lighting the flag on fire but then Hogan starts rubbing his earlobe and he decides to let it slide. No point in picking a fight about that*
*Relaxes into Hogan's touch*

*Raises an eyebrow at Hogan's epiphany and then frowns at his question*
*Thinks about it for a moment*
Not exactly... You do make it known that you don't care about my work for this camp at all, though *sounds a little hurt at that*
But I know that what I do is important and that if it wasn't for me you'd all be half starved and barefoot. *There's a bit more force in his words than he would like bc he doesn't really want to admit that he wishes his efforts would be appreciated more* I'm not dependant on your or anyones approval or appreciation *that might be a lie but he'd rather bite off his tongue than admit that*
but i would much prefer it if you could show a bit of thankfulness every now and then when i turn two blind eyes and let you make me look like a fool infront of my superiors!!
*Has grown more and more angry and now grits his teeth not wanting to give away anymore of his private feelings*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*stunned expression morphs into an ashamed one*
"It never occurred to me that I - I didn’t realize -"
*cuts himself off and shakes his head*
"No, that's not true. I did know. Maybe not consciously, but I knew. It just never occurred to me you would...well, that you'd turn out to be a decent person. I mean, you're always going on about "the all-victorious Fatherland", and...well, never mind. Clearly, I've started to become one of the bigots I hate. But that ends now."
*sits up so he can look Klink in the eyes*
*swallows hard, his tone a quiet one when he speaks*
"I'm sorry..." *starts to say Wilhelm, but doesn't* "...Colonel Klink. I really am. I'll try to be more appreciative from now on, and I'll tell my men to do the same thing. Pretty sure none of them have thought about how much you do do for us."
*expression clearly says 'I feel like the world's biggest jerk'. Doesn’t bother trying to hide it*
*shoulders slump as he scrubs a hand down his face. Makes a decision his gut agrees with*
"After the inspector gets here in..." *checks his watch* "...three hours and then leaves, I have something important to tell you. I know talk is cheap, but trust me, this will prove without a shadow of a doubt I'm being sincere. I think you'll understand why once you hear it."

[Oberst W. Klink]

*feels his anger fade as soon as he sees Hogan's ashamed face and it's completely gone when Hogan says sorry*
*Asks himself for the thousandth time if he will ever not be charmed by Hogan*
*Sighs in resignation*
Don't say things that won't hold true.
*Gets up again and starts for the bathroom*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*shakes his head*
"I'm not, sir. I'm really, really not. You'll see."
*wonders if Klink actually has a crush on him or was just going with the flow*
*wants to do something nice either way*
*gets up and goes to grab the chocolates from the living room*
*quickly returns to the bedroom, both because he's still naked and because he doesn't want Klink to think he just left and get upset with him again*
*sits on the bed and looks for one like the kommandant had chosen earlier*
*sets it on the box's lid near Klink's pillow, trying to convey that the chocolate is for him*
*Fluffs said pillow before laying back down on his own, not-fluffed up one* 
*puts his fist under his chin while he's thinking*
*face shows he's lost in thought*

[Oberst W. Klink]

*has taken a quick 3 minute shower and now comes out of the bathroom again in his robe*
*Heads for his wardrobe to get a clean shirt and stuff*
There are fresh towels in the bathroom if you want to take a shower
*Turns to look at Hogan*
*Notices the thoughtful look and the chocolate non the pillow*
...Col-... Robert?

[Col. R. Hogan]

*is startled by the sound of Klink’s voice and visibly jerks*
“Wha…oh. Sure. Thanks, that’d be great.”
*sits up, being careful not to jostle the pillow*
*points to the chocolate*
“I uh, I picked that one out for you. I noticed you grabbed that kind earlier and…well, I just thought you’d appreciate not having to search through the box. You don’t have to eat it, though. I mean, if you don’t want to. I…aw, damnit.”
*is both annoyed and embarrassed by his awkwardness*
“I…I’m just gonna go shower before I humiliate myself even more.”
*blushes yet again as he runs for the bathroom*

[Oberst W. Klink]

*is extremely endeared by Hogan's struggle and a wide smile spreads across his face*
*Reaches for Hogan when he heads for the bathroom and grabs his arm*
*Pulls Hogan close*
*Kisses him and whispers in his ear*
Thank you

[Col. R. Hogan]

*is still embarrassed, but tries to play it cool by giving Klink a lopsided grin*
“You’re very welcome. I wanted to do something nice for you.”
*sighs happily as he returns the kiss*
*but finds himself blushing even more after realizing how he sounded*
*figures all of the blood in his body is going to end up in his cheeks at the rate he’s going*
“Hope I didn’t overfluff your pil –”
*cuts himself off with a groan*
“Never mind. Sometimes I talk too much.”
*drags his hand down his face*
“I wanna, uh, I…I can’t…”
*slightly high-pitched tone*
“I think I’ll make it a cold shower.”
*runs for the bathroom again, breathing a sigh of relief once there’s a door between him and Klink*
*talks to himself as he takes his shower, too flustered to keep his voice down*
“Come on, pull it together, Rob! You sound like the world's biggest dumbass. This was probably a one-time thing for him, you know. Just because you’ve had the hots for him ever since you got here doesn’t mean those feelings go both ways.”
*is reluctant to wash Klink’s scent from his skin but does it anyhow*
“Even if he’s sexy as hell, you can’t keep flirting with him. Or give him a blow job under the desk. Or ask to wear his uniform, or somehow figure out how to make his favorite foods, or...”
*trails off with a sigh*
“Fuck me, I’ve got it bad.”
*towels off before wrapping the towel around his waist*
“Well, here goes nothing.”
*steps out into the room and manages to immediately forgets the pep talk he just gave himself when he sees Klink*
“I’m done!”
*closes his eyes, wishing his words hadn’t come out so high-pitched*

[Oberst W. Klink]

*enjoys it immensely how flustered Hogan is and just watches his stammering with a broad grin thinking how cute Hogan is*
*When Hogan disappears in the bathroom he takes the chocolate and pops it in to his mouth*
Könntsch mich dran gewöhnen, nichar... *murmurs*
*Doesn't hear Hogan's monologue over the sound of the shower and gets dressed*
*Looks all smart again when Hogan comes out but when he sees Hogan with only the towel his mouth falls open and his ears and downstairs region become all hot again*
*It takes him a substantial while to realise that Hogan has said something*
Good, i'll just quickly check on Fräulein Hilda.
*Then leaves the bedroom in a hurry to give Hogan some privacy to get dressed and to prevent himself from getting carried away again*
*Takes a deep breath once he left the bedroom*
*Grabs his monocle from where he left it on the coffee table*
*then Goes through the door connecting his quarters and his office*
*sticks his head out of his office to ask Hilda if there was anything new and to find out whether he was missed*
Fräulein Hilda, irchendwelche Anrufe für mich?



Hilda:
Nein, Herr Kommandant.
*She looks at him curious about what happened to Hogan but doesn't dare to ask*



Klink:
Gut.
*Closes the door again and goes back through to his quarters to see what Hogan is doing*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*is somewhat grateful when Klink leaves because it gives him a chance to calm down*
*wonders if it's possible to literally die of embarssment*
*tries not to think about how much fun he had while he puts his uniform back on*
*does not succeed and now has blood flowing to two different places*
*still looks pleased with himself once he notices the chocolate is gone*
"Note to self: do nice things for him more often."
*makes an unsuccessful attempt to get rid of his issue*
*but manages to make it worse after thinking about what they did some more*
"Knock it off, Rob. Stop thinking about his beautiful smile, his other talents, his -"
*cuts himself off when he notices Klink*
"Heeey."
*nervous laugh*
"How, uh, how long have you been standing there?"

[Oberst W. Klink]

* intended to wait for Hogan in his living room but hears Hogans voice from the bedroom and goes to check what Hogan wants*
*Stops at the door frozen when he hears Hogan talk about his smile*
*First he feels incredibly happy and flattered but then quickly derails to another train of thought*
*What if Hogan is trying to manipulate him again?*
*Why would Hogan talk to himself like a loony?*
*Did Hogan intend for him to hear these compliments?*
*What if this is all some intricate scheme?*
*His face darkens*
long enough to notice that you're going stircrazy *there's no humour in his voice*
*Turns around and heads for the front door*
Come on, i want to check on your men! *Coldly*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*wonders why Klink seems so pissy all of a sudden*
*neutral tone*
"Sure, Kommandant."
*quietly follows behind him without any protests*
*as expected, his men are hard at work fixing the books*
*racks his brain while he follows Klink back to his quarters*
*Why does it seem like Klink’s mad at him?*

*And why did Klink say that about him going stir crazy?*

*dawns on him that Klink must've heard him talking to himself*
*cleans their coffee cups, both to be nice and to hopefully put Klink in a better mood*
*decides to ask his question as he sits down next to Klink*
"Did I do something to cheese you off, sir? Everything was fine when you left to go talk to Hilda..."