I Need to Apologize (Explicit)

[Col. R. Hogan]

*blows out a breath of air*
"I have no idea, to be honest. It was just a suggestion. Right now, I want nothing more than to fix whatever is making you sad, but I don't know what to say or do. That goes double if I'm the reason for it. I just...I'm not used to being at a loss for answers. It's unnerving. And I don't wanna put my foot in my mouth yet again, so..."
*shrugs helplessly*
"The best thing I can think of to do after we get things settled is for me to change the sheets so we don't get dirty again - or have the smell or sex on us - and then go to sleep. Preferably while I'm holding you in my arms, if that's alright with you."
*finishes tying his one shoe*
*stands back up*
*grabs his crutches*
"Let's do this."

[Oberst W. Klink]

*is touched by Hogan's words*
*The sleeping in his arms part sounds way too temtping to back out of his request for Hogan to stay*
*Takes a deep breath*
I'm ok, don't put too much thought into that...
*Gets up and grabs Hogan's arm when he's about to leave*
Wait
*Pulls him close and kisses his cheek enjoying his warmth and scent*
Go lie down on the couch and act like you're asleep
I'll tell Schultz that you had too much wine and I can't wake you
Since I gave you the wine I'll be a lenient Kommandant and let you sleep
*Smiles at that and already feels much better*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*somehow doubts that but doesn't want to rock the boat*
"Alright, if you're sure...then I trust you."
*stops when Klink grabs his arm*
*opens his mouth to ask why*
*ends up with a goofy, totally-in-love expression*
*he loves it when his kommandant acts all cute like this*
*gives Klink’s neck a quick nuzzle*
*widens his eyes comically*
*puts both hands on his cheeks*
*faux shocked tone* "Oh no! You can't become a lenient Kommandant! Now who's gonna keep me in line?"
*lets his eyes go back to normal as he puts his hands down*
*grins at Klink*
*teasing tone* "Maybe you can recommend someone for the job later on. They do have to be in the Luftwaffe, though. I have standards. Ideally, they should wear a monocle too."
*kisses Klink’s cheek*
*hops out of the room to do what he's been asked*

- 30 minutes later -

*has changed the bedding after Schultz left for the last time*
*is lying in bed under the covers naked*
*is also holding Klink - who has his usual nightgown on - in his arms*
*has put his bomber jacket on the nightstand next to him instead of hanging it up*
*gives Klink a soft kiss*
"Are you ready for one of your last two gifts yet? The other one is sexual in nature, so I can't give you that one tonight."

[Oberst W. Klink]

*lies in Hogan's arms and enjoys being held*
*It's been far too long since he git to spend the night with someone*
*Doubts that he'll find sleep tonight as he isn't used to someone being there and also still feels quite anxious about being found out*
*But Hogan's arms around him definitely feel like they're worth the risk right now*
*also regrets that they couldn't just stay in bed and fall asleep together but had to get dressed and come up with an excuse between having sex and going to bed*
*but tries to concentrate on the upside of things which is lying in bed together*
*Enjoys being kissed so softly*
Oh the gifts...I completely forgot about those
*Props himself up on an elbow*
*Wonders what on earth Hogan could have for him if not a sexual favor*
I am more than curious
*Looks at Hogan expectantly*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*chuckles*
"To be fair, you were otherwise occupied teasing the hell out of me. Which, by the way, you're very good at. I really thought my cock was gonna implode from holding back so much. Still had a lot of fun, though. I would love for you to do it again too - just not tonight."
*kisses Klink again*
*grabs his bomber jacket*
*rumages inside it for a few seconds*
*pulls out a box containing two bottles*
*one is the aftershave Klink wears and the other is the cologne he wears*
*hands it to him*
*stammers* "I uh, I noticed you didn’t have much of either one left, and...well, I like smelling them on your skin. So I...I got these. I hope you, ya know...li, like them."
*flushes pink*
*damn it, this blushing thing has got to go!*
"I originally wanted to get you another opera record. Unfortunately, I don't have the first clue which ones are good. I'm more of a swing music kind of guy. And when I asked Schultz about the other artists I've seen on your shelf, he said you couldn't buy anything by them now. Added that those musicians - and everything else you'd probably like - had been banned, so...yeah. But I did try."
*cheeks are red by now after that awkward explanation*
*buries his face in the crook of Klink’s neck to hide it*
*Why did he say that?*
*His kommandant probably thinks he's an idiot now*

[Oberst W. Klink]

*his ears start burning at Hogan's recap of what they did*
*Can't that man enjoy in silence...?*
*Takes the box*
Danke...
*Is a bit startled that Hogan pays attention to these things and also has remembered the brands*
*Smiles widely at Hogan's stammering*
Robert...
*Sets the box.down on the nightstand*
You don't have to justify your gifts
*Pulls his embarrassed troublemaker close*
It's very thoughtful, thank you
*Kisses Hogan, softly at first then with a bit of tongue*
*Then a thought strikes him and he pulls back*
*Looks at Hogan critically*
Where did you get the money for all this?! There's a war on and luxuries like this cost a fortune
*Frowns but then chuckles*
Do you get money from London?
Did the allied high command pay for my aftershave?
*Laughs at this absurd thought*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*lets himself be pulled close*
*is relieved Klink likes his gifts and that he's not being laughed at for stammering*
*a blissful expression appears on his face while they're kissing*
*enjoys tasting Klink’s tongue in his mouth*
*frowns slightly at the question*
*he refuses to lie to his lover anymore*
*squirms a bit*
"Not exactly. I kind of...I have it made up by native craftsmen." *hastily* "But I only use that stuff at stores that support the regime. The ones that don't get the genuine article, 'cause I think it's important to support those businesses in any way I can. My men feel the same way."
*bites his lip*
"A lot of times, we slip the owners some extra food for them and their families too. A lot of them just...they're barely scraping by, Wil. And they're good people. Everyone here knows they're guaranteed basic rations as a prisoner of war, but civillans aren't. We...we wanna make sure they don't starve. Sometimes, we even stay out later than we're supposed to on a work detail solely to help the elderly folks in town with chores. They don't have anyone else, and...and..."
*clears his throat so his voice won't keep choking up*
"Anyhow, me, Newkirk and Carter really enjoy doing that. The only thing we've ever asked in return is for them to tell us stories. Stories of life here before this war began. All of us want to hear them so we understand things a little better. As for me, I plan to stay here afterwards to help rebuild the country. I...I just wanna help people. Not hurt them."
*is ashamed of how small his voice has become*
"I hope you're not mad at me..."

[Oberst W. Klink]

*is pretty overwhelmed by this sudden outburst of a sobstory*
*Looks at Hogan, slightly confused as he tries to follow what he's told*
*Sighs when Hogan thinks he's going to be mad*
*He's probably supposed to be mad at the counterfeit money (was that what Hogan was hinting at?) But what difference does it make at this point?*
*After all the decision on not telling on Hogan's operation and staying Kommandant only in title has already been made a while ago*
*Counterfeit money really doesn't make a difference to the big question*
*Suddenly feels exhausted when he's reminded that he agreed to commit treason and be on Hogan's side from now on*
*Even if it's the right thing to do it doesn't feel good*
*Is sorry that he asked*
*Sighs*
So you're telling me that you make counterfeits and then sneak out to help the elderly...?
*It's not a real question, more rhetorical*
I'm not mad at you for the first, I guess i should have expected this *feels and sounds exhausted at this*
It's nice of you to help out in town, though I feel like it makes me look bad that you have to do it behind my back... Not that I could officially allow you to fraternize...
*Looks at Hogan very seriously*
You do know, that you can cause extreme trouble for these people if it gets reported, do you?
*God, he just wants to go back to being cuddled not berate Hogan for being a good person!*
*But the thought of consequences is programmed into him like breathing*
*tiredly settles back down into his pillow*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*is glad Klink isn't mad at him but sad Klink seems to be exhausted*
*the last thing he meant to do was stress his kommandant out*
*doesn't understand how him fraternizing in town could possibly make Klink look bad*
*also doesn't ask*
*shakes his head*
"No. I didn't think anybody would care because we were helping German civillans. Work details do similar things all the time. We don't sneak out to do it, though...we're under armed guard."
*returns Klink’s serious expression*
"I apologize if I'm stressing you out, Wil. But I'm doing my best not to lie to you anymore. I want you to trust me completely - in time, that is. And I know it won't happen if I keep lying to you. So please, don't ask me things you don't genuinely want an answer to, 'cause I can't guarantee the answer will be pleasant."
*pulls Klink close*
*snuggles him*
"Anyhow, I'm through talking about heavy topics. I'd rather get some sleep so I can get up early to cuddle with you."
*kisses him on the lips*
"Can I safely assume you're not opposed to that idea?"

[Oberst W. Klink]

*hates that he didn't know what his prisoners AND guards were doing in town*
*Has he ever been in control of anything in this camp?*
*Lets himself be pulled close*
*Just wants to sleep and not think about what a failure he is*
Ja *murmurs quietly*
*Feelsnvery small in Hogan's arms*
*It's nice to be held but he really wishes he had someone to hold on to who is not a much better person than him and who would not constantly show him how he failed at everything*


--- very early the next morning ---
*Wakes from Hogan stirring next to him*
*Has not slept very deeply because of his worries and the unfamiliarity of someone next to him*
*Rubs his face and looks at the alarmclock*
*Way too early*
*Cuddles close to Hogan who is warm and strong*
*It calms him a little*
*Whishes he could have had this affair without knowing about anything*
*Yeah having an affair with an ordinary prisoner sounds quite good... And a bit shameless ... Naughty...in all the good ways*
*His blood centers in his groin at this thought*
*Buries his face in Hogan's shoulder to hide his shame, even though there's noone there to see it*
*Why does it make him hard to imagine himself as the successful iron ruler who has a forbidden affair with a submissive prisoner?*
*Has he always been so wicked?*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*has slept like a baby*
*yawns
*opens his eyes*
"Guten Morgen, mein Lieber. I hope you slept well."
*smiles*
"I know I did. Holding you in my arms all night long was magical."
*is happy to feel Klink’s arousal against him and even happier to see they still have a few hours before roll call*
*reaches down to stroke Klink’s cock*
"I still have that sexual gift for you if you're interested..."
*hopes Klink says yes*
*wants to show his kommandant just what he's capable of*

[Oberst W. Klink]

Morgen *mumbles against Hogan's shoulder*
*How can Hogan always say such embarassing things without thinking twice?*
*Lets out something between a moan and a surprised squeak when Hogan touches his half hard cock*
*Is actually not properly in the mood but what use is it to dwell on it*
*He can at least get part of his naughty desires fulfilled*
*Pulls Hogan in for a kiss and sucks on his lips*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*chuckles*
"I'm gonna take that as a yes."
*allows Klink to pull him close*
*makes noises of enjoyment into Klink’s mouth*
*keeps stroking Klink's cock with one hand*
*abruptly pulls away*
"I think it's time I showed you that appreciation I promised."
*rolls Klink onto his back*
*manages to kneel between Klink’s legs*
*it's awkward with a cast but not painful*
*runs a thumb over the head of Klink’s cock*
"Mm, now this is what I've been craving in my mouth all week."
*looks at Klink with a wicked smile*
"Enjoy your last gift, love."
*doesn't break eye contact as he lowers his head* 
*takes Klink's entire cock into his mouth*
*the task requires some effort to get all the way down to the base since his kommandant is hung, but he eventually manages it*
*focuses on giving the best blow job he possibly can*
*has never done this with Klink before and wants to make a good first impression*
*is confident about his skills*
*Robert Hogan's mouth is good for things other than talking*
*has had plenty of practice at performing oral sex on both on men and women*
*keeps eye contact the entire time so he can judge what Klink likes by his reactions*
*decides to throw a little vibration into the mix by humming a song*
*chooses the chorus of "Das Deutschlandied" because he has a sense of humor*
*also because he wants Klink to remember this experience every time he hears it*
*there's more than one way to etch yourself into someone's memory*
*facial expression shows how much he's enjoying himself*
*slowly pulls back until he reaches the tip after humming and sucking for a while*
*flicks his tongue against the sensitive bundle of nerves underneath it a few times*
*swirls his tongue around the tip, licking it like an ice cream cone*
*suddenly stops*
*grins at Klink and wiggles his eyebrows*
*speaks in a teasing voice*
"Should I keep going?"
*has completely ignored his now rock-hard cock in favor of giving Klink pleasure*

[Oberst W. Klink]

*pulls the nightgown over his head and zhrows it on the floor as Hogan settlees between his legs*
*His insides clench in anticipation and he gasps at Hogan's words*
*Bites his lip being mesmerized by Hogan's dark eyes looking into his as he swallows his cock*
*The wet heat feels overwhelming*
*Moans and throws his head back as Hogan manages to get the whole thing into his mouth*
Liebe... scheiße... *The words are barely more than a breathy whisper*
*Whimpers as Hogan licks and sucks*
*And oh god, the sight of Hogan looking at him with his mouth full of cock*
*His hands grab the sheets with a deathgrip and he can't surpress a loud moan as Hogan starts humming*
*Until he realizes what song it is*
Stop that!
*Squirms away a bit but then realizes that means interrupting the excellent work Hogan does*
*Keeps still again and hos voice sounds muc more pleading than he likes it to*
Nein, doch nicht, nicht aufhören aber...
*His breathy protest is interupted by another whimper that escapes him without permission*
Stop that song!!
*Moans in enjoyment*
*Gods help him, he'll have revenge for this*
*But then Hogan pulls back and his hazy thoughts are interrupted*
*Wants to protest but then Hogan starts licking that sweet spot under the tip and all that he can do is moan and whimper some more*
*Exhales in disappointment when Hogan stops*
*Oh no, is he going to get revenge for yesterdays teasing?! Please no, he should have just come in Hogan's mouth when he had the chance instead of holding back to get more out of it*
Why yes!! Of course you should!
*Pants*
What kind of gift would that be if you wouldn't?!
*Sounds offended but the hint of despair at the possibility of being teased is definitely audible. Damn!*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*has thoroughly enjoyed making Klink moan and whimper*
*is pleased to see the song has had its desired effect*
*grins*
"Just checking...sir."
*gives his kommandant a cheeky wink*
*licks his lips*
*eyes darken with lust*
"Don't worry, I won't leave you hanging. I like having your cock in me any way I can get it."
*keeps eye contact as he swallows Klink’s cock again*
*sighs happily because he loves knowing he's giving Klink pleasure*
*begins humming the song again to distract him*
*feels around on the floor for Klink’s suspenders with one hand*
*when he finds the suspenders he shifts his body weight slightly so he can get up in a hurry*
*flicks the sweet spot a few times with his tongue*
*massages Klink’s balls just hard enough to temporarily blind him with pleasure*
*hops out of bed*
*quickly ties Klink’s wrists to the headboard*
*lets out a dirty laugh*
"God, I love seeing your reactions. You're so sexy like this. All hard, squirmy...and mine. Only mine."
*runs the back of his hand along Klink’s cheek*
*seductive voice* "But turnabout is fair play, you know."
*grabs the vaseline*
*resumes his spot between Klink’s legs*
 *opens it and puts some on his right index finger*
"I wanna prove how sexy you are to me by taking this blowjob to the next level. What do you think, Wil?"
*doesn't want Klink to feel forced but hopes he'll agree*
*massages the sweet spot under the head of Klink’s cock with his right hand and his balls with the left one*

[Oberst W. Klink]

*groans as Hogan takes him in again*
*What a relief*
*Closes his eyes in enjoyment and sighs contently*
*Until Hogan takes up that song again*
I told you to stop that!
*Gives hogan an annoyed stare that doesn't last very long because it just feels so good*
*Combs his fingers through Hogan's hair and moans in pleasure*
*The moans turn into whimpers when Hogan works that certain spot again*
Rob...!
*He's about to come when his vision turns white for a moment*
*When his senses return to him his hands are tied above his head*
*Pulls at the restraints, still a bit confused about what happened*
* Hogan's dirty laugh sends a shudder through him*
*His chest tightens with panic*
*Stares at Hogan with wide eyes*
U-Untie me!
*His words are not much more than a breathy whisper as Hogan caresses his cheek*
*Pulls at the ties with more force but can't get free*
Untie me!! Immediately! *yells*
*Knows he doesn't have any reason to be afraid and he shouldn't be angry because he didn't ask Hogan for permission either but he can't help the panic being tied up causes.*
*The lust is gone*
*Wants Hogan to stop touching him*
*His breathing is heavy with panic now rather than lust*
Hör auf...!
*Squeezes his eyes shut in an attempt to control his irrational reaction*
*And what if Hogan betrays him again...? If he enjoys scaring him?*
*Feels sick at these thoughts*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*frowns at what seems to be genuine annoyance from the song on Klink’s end*
*eyes widen when Klink sounds scared*
*holds up his hands *
*soothingly* "Easy, easy. I'll do it right now. There's no need to yell."
*gets up again*
*unties Klink*
"There you go. I wasn’t gonna hurt you, by the way. Just wanted to give you a chance to truly relax and be playful at the same time is all. Same goes for the song."
*brushes a kiss across his lips*
"But if you really don't like those things, I'll stop. I want this to be enjoyable for you."
*goes back to cap the vasiline*
*looks at Klink*
"I promise I'll make things up to you whenever you're ready, though. I think - or hope - you'll enjoy the dual sensation of me sucking you off while I finger you. I love pleasuring you in any way I can."
*an excited shiver goes through his body at the very idea of making Klink moan because of him*
*unintentionally whimpers*
*cheeks turn pink as he clears his throat*
"Anyhow, do you care if I at least hold your cock in my mouth for now? I won't do anything else unless you say it's okay, but I like tasting you."
*eyes go halflidded at the very idea*
*his cock, which had gone flaccid when he heard Klink panicking, becomes erect again*
*lets out a shuddery breath* 

[Oberst W. Klink]

*rubs his wrists as he is freed*
*They are already a bit red from him pulling so hard*
*Really doesn't want to be kissed*
*Reaches for his nightgown an quickly pulls it on to cover himself*
*Feels extremely embarrassed about his overreacting and also still somewhat panicked*
*Can't believe what Hogan is suggesting*
*That man really has no empathy or timing at all!*
Definitely not!
*Feels anger replace the panick and embarrassment*
*Almost jumps out of bed*
*Grabs his robe and angrily ties it around him*
I really have to apologize for not asking your permission before tieing you up last night!
*Tries to sound calm but it's obvious that he's more than upset*
It was very rude of me!
*Leaves for the living room and slams the door behind him*
*Just stands there for a minute trying to calm down*
*Feels terrible about everything*
*So embarrassing and dumb to panic because of sth he did to Hogan without thinking twice*
*The fear that overwhelmed him when he thought of Hochstetter last night*
*How incompetent and stupid he feels compared to Hogan*
*Hogan who has not the slightest bit of tactfulness*
*And who let him think he was going to be tortured to teach him a lesson*
*Why again did he forgive Hogan?*
*Is hurt and angry*
*Wanders to the kitchen and starts to make coffee to occupy himself*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*looks at Klink in shock*
*is too stunned to say a word when Klink snaps at him and stomps out*
*stares stupidly at the door as it slams* 
*What was that about? He liked being tied up!*
*frowns*
*True, he probably should have asked before tying Klink up...but he didn't think Klink would panic so much!*
*Not when it's just him*
*Him, the man Klink has known for years...the man who let Klink believe he would be tortured*
*a horrified expression crosses his face*
*Surely Klink didn't really think he would that. He'd known about the operation beforehand!*
*except he obviously did*
*is disgusted with himself for letting things go too far*
*also feels sad*
*Maybe Klink didn't forgive him after all...maybe he just said that to be kind*
*Does that mean Klink was lying about loving him too?*
*doesn't know*
*still loves Klink, though*
*Who does the answer man go to when he needs answers?*
*doesn't know that either*
*does know he needs to find out one way or the other - without Klink dodging his questions - at some point so he knows where he stands*
*sinks down onto the bed in despair*
*hangs his head*
*decides not to go out of the room so Klink will have his space*
*eventually decides to look for his clothes so he can get dressed*

[Oberst W. Klink]

*sits at the table and sips his coffee without enjoying it*
*Feels lost and lonely*
*Doesn't know at all how to go forth with Hogan*
*Glances at the clock*
*He needs to get dressed for rollcall but he doesn't want to see Hogan*
*The anger at Hogan's lack of tact had soon faded but he is still hurt because of the Hochstetter thing and ashamed for how he reacted to Hogan's best efforts*
*But it can't be helped...*
*Pulls himself together and knocks on the bedroom door*
Can i come in?