I Need to Apologize (Explicit)

[Col. R. Hogan]

*holds onto Klink tightly*
“I liked seeing you wear your boots to bed. You look sexy in them.”
*grumbles somewhat when Klink rolls away*
*now he feels empty since his body had already adjusted to having Klink’s cock inside of him*
*snuggles up next to Klink the moment the covers are over them*
*sighs in contentment*
*all is right with the world*
*wraps his arms around Klink after he’s pulled close*
*kisses his cheek*
*yawns* “Meeting you is the best thing that ever happened to me, you know. I’m glad I ended up at Stalag 13.”
*nuzzles him*
*he is definitely gonna sleep good tonight*
*rests his head in the crook of his kommandant’s neck but quickly looks up when he hears the sound of grinding teeth*
“What’s wrong?”

[Oberst W. Klink]

*wants to say "you have to leave" but stops himself, that didn't go down well last time*
*Tries to calm himself by pulling Hogan ever closer*
I hate that i have to send you away again...

[Col. R. Hogan]

*frowns*
"Oh. I can understand that; I don't want to leave you either."
*thinks hard for a moment*
"I have an idea about how I could stay here until my leg is healed...if you'll have me, that is."
*watches Klink carefully, trying to judge his reaction to this suggestion*
*doesn't want to be yelled at when things are going so smoothly*
"It would require you to do a bit of yelling at me, though. But everyone else would just think you're being grumpy and all that. Are you interested?"

[Oberst W. Klink]

*frowns and leans away a bit to be able to look at Hogan*
*Is not happy at Hogan having a plan that he probably has to deny because it's too dangerous*
*He is really not keen on raising anymore suspicions about the nature of their new won "friendship"*
*Thinks it's already more than suspicious that he has gone to visit Hogan in the sickbay every single day, even if it only was for a short time*
Well... Yelling at you sounds like something i would do without raising suspicions...
I can at least listen to your plan, I guess...
*Sighs as he doesn't believe it'll be convincing*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*pats his arm*
"That's all I ask. Keep in mind I won't be in any actual danger; everything is only gonna be an illusion."
*takes a deep breath*
"My plan is to get back up on the roof to finish fixing it - with a few of my men to make sure I don't fall, of course - and figure out a way to get Schultz to go tell you what I'm up to. That part should be easy...he cares about me enough to do it. Then you can come storming out of your office and yell at me for it. Say I'm a dumbass, you can't take your eyes off me for one second, etcetera. Maybe throw something in there about American foolishness being the reason we're losing the war if you think it'll help."
*shrugs*
"If you don’t like that plan, we can always come up with something else together. I'm trying to work with you here, not against you. Also trying to sell a story people will buy. I think the idea of you keeping me in here for my own safety until my leg is fully healed should do the trick quite nicely."

[Oberst W. Klink]

*exasperated*
You want to tell your men about us?!
*Lets go of Hogan and sits up*
Don't tell me, they already know!
I did not give you permission to tell anyone about my... My... Inclinations...
*The thought of anyone at camp knowing he likes men freaks him out*
*But Hogan couldn't have told them, could he?!*
Tell me you didn't, please
*Rubs his face*
*How could he ever have been so foolish as to start this affair?!*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*looks at Klink with a confused expression*
"What are you - no! Absolutely not! I give you my word of honor I haven't told a soul about us. If I could do so without getting us both killed - and I had your permission - I'd gladly tell everyone you were mine. But I can't and I don't."
*can't figure out what gave Klink that idea*
*the fact his kommandant would even think he'd betray his trust like that stings, but he pushes it aside*
*that's not what's important right now*
"Even if I had, they'd have no room to judge. A lot of them have, uh, arrangements to fulfill each other's sexual needs. It's a common thing in POW camps. Some officers are completely against it; others encourage it. Me personally, I don't care one way or another who my men sleep with or what they do as long as they don't proposition me. And all of them know that too."
*clears his throat*
"Anyhow, that's besides the point. What made you think I told them about us to begin with? 'Cause I'm completely lost on how you came to that conclusion."

[Oberst W. Klink]

*his racing thoughts slow down a bit when Hogan says he hasn't told anyone*
Well you said you'd have your men watch you on the roof...
What do you want to tell them why you want to go up there if not the truth?
*Frowns*
If I even know them a little they won't let you do something so stupid withlut a very good reason
*Knows that Hogan means a lot to his men, and has seen it just recently when newkirk and lebeau had tried to protect their CO from the evil Kommandant*
*Also knows that these men are absolutely not above insubordination*
Also why would i not just lock you in the cooler or the sickbay for being reckless?
I'm in my office all they, you staying in my qaurters doesn't exactly help me to keep watch on your foolishness...

[Col. R. Hogan]

*nods*
"They do...but I'm telling them I wanna go up there to complete the job I was working on before I fell. My men also know I have a thing about personally finishing things I start. And I also know at least one or two of them will insist on coming up there to keep me safe, while the others watch me like a hawk. Hence the reason I won't be in any real danger."
*shrugs*
"You wouldn't lock me in the sickbay because you don't trust me to try and bribe your guards to let me out. Regarding you being in your office all day, you could always say I have to stay in there with you, that being bored for 8 weeks is a suitable punishment. Doing that instead of throwing me into the cooler - where I might get sick - would work well with the whole 'iron fist of discipline' and 'tough but fair' things you say a lot."
*winks*
"To be fair, I hate being confined, so the punishment part isn't really a lie. But the early mornings and evenings would make everything worth it for me. Please?"
*wicked smile*
"I'm more than willing to make it worth your while if you say yes, by the way. And I'm very open to any...ideas...you might wanna try as well."
*bites his lip*
"I really enjoyed having you take control of me tonight, you know. 10/10 would do anything you asked if you made the request half-naked like that."
*flushes pink after admitting that*
*wonders what Klink’s reaction to everything he's said will be*

[Oberst W. Klink]

I really don't think that is very convincing
*sighs unhappily*
*Feels filthy now, discussing lies, punishments and schemes naked and still covered in cum and sweat*
Keeping you in my office all day would surely make a credible punishment for both of us....
but why would i keep you at night when you're supposed to be confined to barracks and your more or less comfortable private room anyway...
Hogan... Robert...I understand that you want to spend time with me... And more opportunities to do ...things...
I feel the same, I would love the chance to properly enjoy and explore this new ... Thing we have
*He doesn't want to say relationship or love or anything as not to make a promise he can't keep*
But we can't keep this a secret for very long if we are too greedy... And a secret it has to be. That's just how it is, we can't do anything about that.
*Hates to be the one telling both of them no but knows that Hogan certainly won't be the responsible one in their... Thing*

[Col. R. Hogan]

"Again, because you don't trust your guards to do their jobs. You did publically complain they were fraternizing with the prisoners. Besides, I've managed to come over here lots of times when I've been 'confined to my barracks'."
*makes air quotes*
"I can always spin some story for my men in private too. I can tell them Hochstetter is on your ass about sabotage in the area again, that you want me in your line of sight at all times so you can prove once and for all I'm an ordinary POW. Security-wise, it would make perfect sense on your end - even I can't be physically present in two places at once. Might even keep him away from here permanently if we're lucky."
*sits up*
*gives Klink a serious look*
"I understand that we have to be careful and everything, okay? I really do. But this is a golden opportunity for us to explore...whatever it is we have. Once my leg heals, I won't have a valid excuse to be in here with you or see you every day. Not without raising a bunch of red flags. And while my men personally wouldn't care if they knew, yours definitely would."
*expression turns thoughtful*
"Truth be told, if you agreed to this, LeBeau and Newkirk would probably be happy to help you keep me confined. They worry about me a lot. Hell, LeBeau might even willingly cook for you out of sheer gratitude the next time you have some important visitor."
*sighs*
"I wouldn’t even ask if I thought there was a chance we'd get caught, Wil. I'm not careless enough to risk both of our lives on a whim. I'm asking you to trust that my plan will work, that I'll be able to spin a believable story. This isn’t the first time I've done it in my life; I'm sure it won't be the last either. "
*sweet tone*
"Please say yes..."

[Oberst W. Klink]

*grumbles quietly as Hogan says how being confined to barracks never has been a hindrance*
*The Hochstetter scheme does sound like it makes sense, though*
*Looks at Hogan slightly hopeful*
*He wants to believe and he wants to take this opportunity...but if they get cought...*
*The unhappy frown returns to his face*
*Pulls the blanket higher because he is starting to feel cold and also to bring a barrier between himself and Hogan's foolish schemes*
*Doesn't care what the englishman and the little cockroach think and is a bit annoyed that they dare to have an opinion on his decisions at all*
*When Hogan says please in his childish sweet talking tone he is fed up again*
Don't do that! *Angrily*
This is a serious topic with high stakes and not you asking me for extra dessert!
If you can't even take this seriously then I certainly won't put my neck out for you!
*Angrily throws off the cover and marches off to the bathroom*

[Col. R. Hogan]

"Do wha - oh. Whoops. Sorry, force of habit by now."
*hadn't realized what he was doing until Klink pointed it out*
*wishes he didn't have these childlike tendencies sometimes*
*it's annoying to be called out on them but at the same time that's what he'd asked his kommandant to do*
*and he sort of did*
*the rest was just Klink being his grumpy self*
"I am taking this seriously, though. Very seriously. My apologies if it doesn't sound like I am."
*watches Klink march into the bathroom*
*wraps his arms around himself in his standard thinking pose while he thinks about how to rephrase this*
"Fine. I'd be very, very happy if you said yes. Is that better?"

[Oberst W. Klink]

I'll think about it *grumpy*
*Throws the door closed*
*Steps into the shower and turns on the water while thinking about Hogan's suggestions*
*It really is an opportunity that won't come back too soon*
*The Hochstetter excuse also sounded much more convincing than being worried for Hogan's health*
*Shudders at the thought of Hochstetter*
*Turns up the water temperature to make the cold feeling of that night go away*
*Maybe using Hochstetter as an excuse is not a great idea after all*
*Suddenly feels very lost and just wants to crawl back into bed with Hogan*
*After a few more minutes he pulls himself togather and gets out of the shower*
*Dries off and puts on his robe*
*Sets a towel and a washcloth out for Hogan then returns to the bedroom*
*Sits on the bed*
*Hesitates*
*He wants to tell Hogan his thoughts but doesn't know how to put it*
*Eventually says something else*
I set a towel and washcloth out for you...

[Col. R. Hogan]

*softly* "Thank you. I appreciate your thoughtfulness."
*wants to hold Klink in his arms to hug him but doesn't want to get him all filthy again*
*settles for a half-side hug instead*
*grabs his crutches*
*hops toward the bathroom*
*closes the door once he's inside*
*groans when he remembers he can't get his cast wet*
"Aw, damnit. How am I gonna do this? Think, Rob!"
*has no garage bag or anything else to put over his cast*
*could probably ask Klink for one but doesn't want to*
*Robert Hogan is a man who solves multiple problems on an everyday basis and he'll solve this one too!*
*looks around*
*grabs the soap and shampoo*
*sets both items next to him*
*wets his hair*
*hangs his head over the shower and scrubs it*
*rinses his hair*
*wets the washcloth and puts soap on it*
*proceeds to wash his body*
*it's slow going because he has to stop to rinse the washcloth a few times but he manages it*
*dries everything off*
*finger combs his hair*
*grabs his crutches again*
*opens the door*
*hops back to the bed*
*smiles sheepishly at Klink*
"Sorry I took so long...couldn't take a normal shower 'cause of my leg. Had to give myself a sponge bath instead."
*eyes the soiled sheets*
*the memory of how they got soiled - and how much he was begging - causes his cheeks to turn pink but he still looks happy*
"If you've got any clean linens, I'll remake the bed for you. I won't be able to do it quickly, of course, but at least it'll get done."

[Oberst W. Klink]

*didn't notice how long Hogan took because he was so lost in thought*
*The thoughts of Hochstetter really sent him spiralling*
*He had just pushed the incident as far away from his consciousness as he could but now it's all coming back*
*Just sat there staring at his hands*
*Looks up at Hogan when he speaks*
*Hogan who stands there naked and smiling, and who let him believe he was going to be tortured*
*Can't answer*
*He doesn't give a fuck about the sheets right now*
*His eyes fall on the cast*
*Right, Hogan threw himself off the roof to prove he was sorry*
*And now Hogan wants to change the sheets for him...*
*As if that would make anything better...*
*Is overwhelmed and sad and wants someone to hold onto*
*Gets up opens his robe and wraps his arms and the flaps of his robe around Hogan*
*Presses him close and buries his face in Hogan's hair*
Can you come up with any excuse to stay here tonight? *Whispers*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*smile fades when Klink doesn't immediately answer him*
*wonders why Klink is looking at his cast like he's never seen it before*
*his internal radar begins pinging*
*something is definitely wrong with Klink*
*being this quiet isn't like him*
*gets that hunch confirmed as Klink latches onto him and asks him to stay*
*his kommandant is clinging to him like a life preserver*
*wraps his arms around Klink and holds him close*
*gently rubs his back with one hand*
*it's an automatic gesture but it feels so natural*
*softly* "Of course I can, Wil. I'll stay here as long as you want me to."
*isn't suprised to discover he actually means in Klink’s life overall*
*he truly loves this man and would do anything for him*
*if they still have this 'relationship' of sorts after the war, he is gonna show Klink what it's like to be pampered*
*even if he has to tie Klink to the bed and force him to accept it*
*Klink deserves to be taken care of for once*
*he might be grumpy but grumpy people need love too*
*it's probably part of Klink’s personality, the same way being childlike at times is a part of his*
*starts to go give Schultz an excuse because he's on autopilot after doing it so many times before*
*then remembers what Klink said about asking before he meddles*
*pauses*
"Do you...do you want me to go handle things, or would you rather do it?"

[Oberst W. Klink]

*Having his back petted feels so good*
*Doesn't even remember the last time someone held him when he was sad*
*Holds on to Hogan as fast as he can*
*Though he wishes he had someone to hold him who hadn't betrayed him*
*A shudder runs through him as he feels like crying*
*Embarassedly removes himself from Hogan's embrace*
*Takes a step back and wraps his robe tightly around himself*
*Rubs his face to clear his mind*
Won't you need me to say something?
*Is ashamed that his voice sounds so small*
*Stares to the floor*
*Maybe he should send Hogan back to his barracks before he embarrasses himself more*
*Takes a shaky breath*
*No, just this once he doesn't want to be alone*
Either way you'll have to get dressed
*The smile he presents with his quip doesn't reach his eyes*
*Just wants to curl up in Hogan's arms asap*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*feels his heart break when Klink shudders*
*does not know what he'll do if Klink starts crying*
*thankfully that doesn't happen*
*forces the pained expression from his face as Klink speaks because he doesn't want to embarrass him*
"No. I can just say you're not feeling well or something if you want. It's all up to you, though."
*wants to fix whatever is making Klink feel so bad*
*smiles slightly*
"Yeah, you're right. Wouldn't want to blind anyone."
*places a comforting hand on Klink's shoulder*
*awkwardly* "Listen, I'm here if you need to...to cry or whatever. It's okay. Really. You've seen me when I was at my lowest point ever, but you didn't judge - you offered comfort. I...I wanna do the same for you, if I can."
*lightly squeezes it*
*begins searching for his clothes*
*starts getting dressed*
*deliberately doesn't look at Klink as so to give him some privacy*

[Oberst W. Klink]

*is embarrassed and endeared at the same time by Hogan's offer*
*Concentrates on his breathing for a minute to calm down*
*He's certainly not going to cry again, at least not in anyone's presence*
*Clears his throat and his voice comes out normal after that which satisfies him*
How would me being unwell warrant ypu staying here?
*Sits down on the bed and looks at Hogan wxpectantly*
*Is his old cautious, or to be honest anxious, self*