I Need to Apologize (Explicit)

[Oberst W. Klink]

Don't be so suprised, or do you want to accuse me of having no taste?
*gives Hogan a raised eyebrow to tease him a bit more*
*gets up and goes to the kitchen again*
*returns with a bottle of heavy red wine and two glasses*
a proper meal requires an adequate drink
*pours for them both*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*looks sheepish*
"Well...no. I wouldn’t wanna do that."
*wants to make Klink smile*
*so pouts slightly to be overdramatic*
*speaks in a playful tone* 
"It’s not very nice of you to make fun of me, you know."
*watches Klink go to the kitchen and back with interest*
*interest is still visible the entire time Klink is sitting down and pouring the wine*
*Danke."
*lifts his wine glass*
*looks at it*
*then looks at Klink's lips*
*licks his own lips*
"Damn, I wanna taste those again."
*blushes a bit*
"Uh...I meant Prost."
*blushes some more*

[Oberst W. Klink]

*notices Hogan's hungry look on him which makes him uncomfortable so he tries to ignore it*
*But the inner turmoil that had vanished for a moment with the food and the banter is back*
*Feels the stove burn his side, not because he stoked the fire too much but because of the tunnel*
*While Hogan burns his other side*
*Feels like he is in-between a rock and a hard place*
*Clinks his glass with Hogan's and gives him a fake smile with it*
Prost
*Sips his wine and wishes he had left it in the kitchen*
*He usually enjoys wining and dining various "love interests" just because he likes being a host and charming people*
*Then when the women get too interested he brings out the fool and fucks it up*
*But Hogan doesn't seem to mind that he's a fool...*
*Tries to eat some more Sauerbraten but has completely lost his appetite*
*What is he gonna do with this situation?*
*Wishes Hogan had never told him the truth about anything*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*takes a sip of wine*
*blush fades when he considers their situation*
*notices Klink doesn't seem as eager to eat anymore*
*comes to the conclusion that he's gonna have to make the first move again*
*sets down his cup*
*sighs*
"Well, we should probably address the big ol' elephant in the room so we can move on. Because I don’t about you, but I'm a confused, jumbled mess right now. And horny...but that part can wait. I can take care of it later on if need be."
*looks at Klink*
"Would you like to go first or should I?"

[Oberst W. Klink]

*winces at Hogan's words*
*Looks at him like he got cought in the cookie jar*
*Wants to ask him what he's talking about to get out of the situation but doesn't because there's no way Hogan would buy it*
*Has to actively stop hinself from squirming*
*Prays that someone escapes right now so he doesn't have to talk about this*
*Maybe even the Geatapo would be a relief right now*
*Squeezes his eyes shut and shudders*
*Finally pulls himself together*
I don't know what to say to you...
*Looks at the glass in his hands*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*sighs again*
"Alrighty, I'll go first then. Maybe that will help you figure out what to say."
*takes a deep breath*
"Look, I really like you. I do. I have since the day I arrived. But I couldn't very well say, "So now that I'm your new Senior POW Officer, can we fuck?" That wouldn't have gone over too well. Hell, you've known me for 2 years now, and look how awkward this is for both of us."
*picks up his glass*
*takes a sip of wine*
"Maybe you don't see what I see. God only knows the visitors you have aren't exactly complimentary towards you."
*shrugs*
*voice is conveying the genuine emotion he feels*
"I see a handsome man, with gorgeous blue eyes and a beautiful smile. I see someone who’s graceful, who can dance, who looks damned fine in his uniform. Someone who - despite snide comments to the contrary - is smart. I see a man who always manages to keep going against all odds, even if it’s solely to spite the people who tell him he can't. Most importantly, I see someone I deeply care about. As a wise man once said, "If we had met in another time - another place, perhaps - we could have been friends." I think we both know who that wise man was."
*polishes off his wine*
"I don't know how you much you did or didn't hear last night - you kinda dodged my question when I asked - but I...I love you, Wilhelm."
*cheeks turn red*
"I'm not expecting you to say it back or anything. I realize some things take time. Who knows, maybe you'll never get to that point. All I can do is tell you how I feel; I can’t do that for you. That's something you'll have to figure out on your own."
*laces the fingers of his free hand with Klink's.*
"If me coming clean made you...I dunno, feel like you've been played or something, I apologize. That wasn't my intention. And if that’s the case, look at it this way: an evil man would have been suspicious a long time ago. Hochstetter is a prime example of that. The fact I was able to get away with this for so long isn't because you're dumb or anything else...it's because you're a good man who believes the best of people. I don't think any less of you for not realizing what I was up to, though. I can promise you that."
*lightly squeezes his hand*
"Please believe me."

[Oberst W. Klink]

*pulls his hand back from Hogan's*
You're a sweet talker Hogan
But words are wind
I'm not in need of your compliments or your approval.
*Pauses as he doesn't know how to make Hogan understand*
...what i need is... A priest maybe...
*Sighs*
I knew you were involved in things , little things i thought, like a bit of black market, a radio..., little things...and i let you do it because I enjoyed your company, the banter the little games...and because i despise the Gestapo and enjoyed Hochstetter's struggle.
But now you suddenly tell me that you're the most wanted man in all of Germany and that you have had a giant sabotage and espionage operation for almost two years, right under my nose?! And i was too blind and full of myself to notice?!
And you expect me to just accept that and move on?
*Looks at Hogan with exasperation*
And on top of that begin an affair with you?!
*Maybe he could have done one of these. Preferably the affair if he's honest. But both?*
*Gets up and starts pacing*
I've committed high treason for two years and didn't even know it...!
*Stops pacing and looks into Hogan's eyes*
I won't give you away. I don't want you to be harmed.
...and they'd shoot me along with you anyway
*Continues pacing*
But how can I move forward with this knowledge?
*Wrings his hands in distress*
What am I supposed to do?!
*Falls into the armchair on the other side of the coffeetable and buries his face in his hands*
Maybe the russian front would be a good way to redeem myself... *Agonized*
*Lifts his face out of his hands and gives Hogan a long look*
I really don't know if I can stay here... Now that the truth is out ... *Almost whispers*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*is slightly offended that Klink thinks his genuine feelings are merely sweet talk*
*keeps his tone neutral*
"I didn’t say those things because I thought you needed them; I said 'em because they're all true. But we can discuss that later on."
*stays sitting so he doesn't scare Klink away*
"Yeah, I do expect you to accept it and move on. The affair thing would be great too. Let's focus on one subject at a time, though."
*runs a hand though his hair*
"Regarding you being full of yourself, that's your own issue. I admit we haven't really talked about our pasts too much. For all I know, that could be something you do to bolster your self confidence or whatever. And I get that you're feeling conflicted. But by not giving me and my men away, that's still treason. Personally, I think if you're gonna commit treason, you might as well go big or go home."
*sighs*
"My team doesn't even know I've told you all of this. I trust you, though. I trust you to make the right choices. If push comes to shove, I can always send you to England. It's better than the Russian Front. Maybe not by a lot, but something is better than nothing." 
*wraps his arms around hinself*
"I give you my word as an officer and a gentleman I will never repeat any of it to anyone. So take as much time as you need, but please answer these questions honestly."
*gazes at Klink*
"Do you really want men like Hochstetter to be in charge everywhere in the world? To wake up every day, wondering if you're gonna be arrested on a made-up charge because some young upstart wants your job? To live in fear of ever speaking your mind about anything, lest you 'disappear' like a certain group of people do on a regular basis? To start and end every conversation with that damned salute and greeting, which, by the way, you don’t seem too thrilled about giving?"
*cocks his head to the side*
"Or do you want things to go back to how they were under Kaiser Wilhelm II? To have your Germany back? To live in a world that's not being torn apart by war? To be free to like, love and have sex with anyone you want without being judged?"
*is completely serious*
"That first set of options is gonna be your life if Hitler wins. I'm doing my bit to ensure he doesn't...and I'm gonna keep doing it, with or without you. But I'd prefer to have you by my side, working with me as much - or as little - as you feel comfortable. I can promise you nothing will change at this camp if you do, alright? I promise. As far as everyone else is concerned, you're the stern Kommandant and I'm a cowed POW. Just business as usual."

[Oberst W. Klink]

"Go big or go home" *repeats the words with desperation*
"Business as usual"
*Buries his face in his hands again*
Scheisse...!
*He knows Hogan is right about everything but it's hard to admit it for himself*
*He has curated his neutral position so carefully for so long*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*is unsure what to say or do*
*so opts to keep his mouth shut for once*
*and sits there silently*
*understands this is probably very difficult*
*looks at the couch because he doesn't want to make Klink feel like he's being pressured*

[Oberst W. Klink]

*curls his hands into fists and slams.them on his thighs*
SCHEISSE! *Yells in frustration but also partly because he just hurt himself*
*Gets up and is in front of hogan with two long strides*
*Grabs him by the collar and roughly pulls him up and presses a rough kiss on Hogans lips*
If that is what it's gonna be like I at least want something good out of it for myself *frustrated*
*Still has Hogan by the collar and pushes him backwards around the sofa towards the bedroom*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*looks concerned*
"Are you -"
*doesn’t get any farther than that before he's grabbed and kissed*
*slowly smiles as he's shoved backwards*
"Hey, I didn’t know you had it in ya to play rough, Wilhelm. About damned time you proved which of us was running this place." 
*playful tone*
"But I don't mind. As long as you keep your riding crop far away from me, I'm open to trying new things."
*chuckles*
"Can I safely assume we're on the same page now?"

[Oberst W. Klink]

Shut up!
*Bumps Hogan's back hard against the closed bedroom door and presses against him*
*Kisses him roughly while pressing his thigh between Hogan's legs*
If you want business as usual you better learn to play cowed!
*Yanks Hogan's jacket down*
*Crushes their lips together again while he gropes for the doorhandle*

[Col. R. Hogan]

"Careful with the jacket! I only have one of those."
*enjoys the kiss*
*takes avantage of Klink looking for the door handle to squirm free*
*shoves Klink against the wall with his arms over his head*
*kisses him*
*teasing taunt*
"Why don’t you make me shut up? Unless you don't think you can manage it..."
*looks away long enough to grab the handle and open the door*

[Oberst W. Klink]

*yelps when Hogan turns them around*
*but kisses back eagerly*
*yanks his hands down when Hogan opens the door and pulls his shirt out of his pants*
be careful what you wish for
*reaches for the riding crop that lay on the sideboard between the bedroom door and the coatrack while he pushes Hogan through the door*
*kicks the door shut behind him*
*slaps the crop into his palm once with a dirty grin*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*eyes go wide*
*nervous laugh*
"Please, both of us know you ain't got the guts to use that."
*strips off his clothes so they don't get ripped*
*grins mischievously*
"Hope you don't object to being my prisoner instead."
*reaches for Klink to grab him and strip him too*

[Oberst W. Klink]

Hooogan...! *snarls when Hogan says he'd not have the guts*
*slaps the crop across Hogan's fingers when he reaches for him*
*he hadn't really planned on using it. That's not part of his usual repertoire. Not that he hasn't fantasized about beating some dicipline into Hogan every now and then, especially when Hogan had made him look the fool infront of Burkhalter ... but he be damned if he let's Hogan be right about not having the guts*
you wanted to see who is in charge here? I'll show you... *dangerously low*
*takes off his tie*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*snatches his hand back*
"Ow!"
*shakes his hand*
*had not been expecting that*
*wonders just how often Klink has used his crop to be so quick with it*
*watches him remove his tie*
*grins evilly*
"Yeah. Yeah, I do. Bring it on, Wilhelm. Let's see what you've got."
*shoves Klink backward onto the bed*
*What was that you were saying about being in charge, huh?"
*playful expression*
*is enjoying this*
"Come on, don't tell me that's all you've got!"

[Oberst W. Klink]

*grits his teeth as he's pushed on the bed, that's not exactly a good position to show that he's in charge*
*also if it came to a wrestle Hogan would probably prove stronger than him as he's younger and not as lanky*
*so he decides to let Hogan sweat a bit*
*places the crop onto the nightstand slowly*
*then carefully puts the monocle next to it*
*ignoring Hogan*
*opens the buttons on his uniform, slowly*
*gets up and takes off the jacket*
*places it on the dresser*
*still ignores naked Hogan and looks totally relaxed*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*watches Klink curiously*
*wonders why he looks so relaxed all of a sudden*
*ponders if he's up to something because he'd been actively resisting up until now*
*dismisses the thought*
*knows Klink is smart, but has never known him to be sneaky*
*has no reason to suspect that's changed*
*but is impatient*
*decides to take control instead*
*eyes where the crop first*
*moves away from it*
"Huh, guess it was. How sad. That's okay, though. I like being in charge."
*walks up behind Klink and kisses his neck*
"You do a great job of submitting to me, by the way. Does it come naturally to you by now?"