I Need to Apologize (Explicit)

[Col. R. Hogan]

*heart races when he sees Klink’s smile*
*he will never tire of seeing that*
*is happy to see Klink appears to like his gifts*
"You're very welcome. As a side note, thank you for releasing LeBeau early. Not sure if I ever told that or not."
*fidgets a bit at the question*
*doesn't want to get Schultz in trouble, but refuses to lie to the man he loves any longer*
*sighs*
*looks Klink in the eyes so Klink knows he isn't lying*
"Schultz did. I said they were for you and told him to make sure they were good quality. Didn't tell him anything else - he can make his own assumptions since he always wants to 'know nothing' anyhow."
*is glad they seem to be on the same page regarding plans*
"Glad to hear it." *seductive tone* "I'll be sure to save room for dessert then."
*ignores his own libido in favor of teasing Klink*
*it's so much fun and good-natured payback is sweet*
*watches Klink intently as he serves the food and wine, mentally planning how to make Klink call out his name later on*
*clicks his glass against Klink’s*
"Zum Wohl und guten Appetit."
*eats some of his soup before speaking*
"Is it alright with you if I get the two serious topics on my mind out of the way first, Wil? I promise they're not bad ones. You're good at distracting me, though, and I don't want to spoil the mood later on."

[Oberst W. Klink]

Schultz, hmmmm, didn't think him to know anything about wine....
*Still seems satisfied with the choice*

Serious topics?
*Looks surprised and stops eating*
*Is really surprised as everything has been going smoothly and he can't think of anything that may bother hogan*
What may that be?
*Concerned*

[Col. R. Hogan]

"Yeah. I took your advice and did some heavy thinking about myself while I was confined to the sickbay. Came to a few conclusions that, whether I like it or not, are part of who I am. They're not things I can change."
*takes a deep breath*
"To begin with, I'm a really playful guy. Almost like a big kid sometimes. I'm prone to being overdramatic too, but I don't do it to be annoying or anything else. Maybe I never grew up all the way."
*looks slightly embarrassed about admitting those things*
"I know it's something that's annoyed you before, so," *clears his throat* "I wanted to tell that. I do play things up on purpose sometimes to get a laugh or a smile, though. Makes me happy whenever I can brighten up your day. Regarding things like gifts, the more effort I put into something, the more important it is to me that the recipient likes it. I don't do fancy things just for show."
*takes a sip of his wine*
*Same goes for when I make plans. I admit I've got a tendency to be over-elaborate; that's how I got shot down. Unfortunately, that's how my mind works. I literally can't make a simple plan. Every time I've tried to do it, things have epically failed. It's only the crazy things that seem to work for me."
*has never in his life said any of that out loud*
*eats some more of his soup while he gathers his thoughts* 
"I'd appreciate it if you verbally told me if I'm getting on your nerves instead of waiting for me to figure it out, though. I'm...I'm not good with context clues. In my family, we openly discussed any issues we had with each other, so learning how to read them is something that's still kinda new to me."
*feels slightly awkward*
"I really want our relationship to keep blooming, Wil. I've got faith we can make it work. I think a major problem up until now has been us not ensuring we're on the same page, you know? At least I haven't done it. I've been assuming you knew where I was coming from. Now I admit it's my fault for not asking, but...well, I just feel the lack of communication is why we've always argued so much."
*shrugs*
"Heck, I didn't even know you yelled at me because you cared until 5 days ago! I thought you were just grumpy and taking it out on the nearest person. And to be honest, I'm not sure how you want me to act either. Rebellious, obedient, submissive...I've gotten mixed signals after trying each one. I don't mind you yelling if that's how you express yourself - that's perfectly acceptable - but I don't wanna truly piss you off. I'd rather you kiss me than scold me."
*prays Klink understands where he's coming from*
*can't be more honest than this*
*doesn't want to screw things up again*
*takes another sip of his wine while he waits for Klink’s reaction*

[Oberst W. Klink]

*thinks about this for a while and doesn't really know what to say to it*
*Finally puts the spoon down with an unhappy frown*
I don't want you to act in any certain way. I want you to be genuine. If you act submissive just to please me... How is that any better than outright manipulating me?
*Gets frustrated at these thoughts that he had pushed aside these past days*
I don't know you very well, all I know is the master manipulater who has played me for years. I find it more than hard to trust you!
You rarely said anything nice to me since you got here, which is normal, because we're supposed to be enemies, I don't hold that against you. But i have trouble accepting this 180° you gave me by suddenly showering me in compliments and this entire "wanting to help" thing.
I'd rather have a few believable compliments than all of this "you're the sexiest man alive" bullshit. Just be honest!
*Is really frustrated now because speaking about this reminds him of all the mean things he had to hear in his life*
*He had just wanted to have a nice dinner with his new lover not think about problems in a relationship that doesn't really exist yet*
*Exhales in frustration*
*Wishes he could just leave*
*His appetite is gone anyway*
*Is quiet for a while to try and calm down*
I've always enjoyed our little witty arguments in my office so I don't generally dislike your playfulness but I don't want to feel like I'm kissing a little boy. I like men not kids and an adult body is not enough to make a man. And for god's sake get a sense for timing! *is already too angry again*
*Sighs in frustration*
I appreciate your effort to make things work between us.
... But i do not want to be the center of your world!
Like I said about a week ago, it might well be that we're not a good fit romantically. Liking each other is not always enough.
I'd much rather take it slow and see if it works out over time instead of forcing things.
*Is really annoyed by Hogan's running ahead again. Why can't Hogan just let some time pass to find out if they can get used to eac other or not*
I'm sorry if that hurts you but i live in a world that is not just red roses and cotton candy. The real world isn't always the way you want it and it won't change just because you want it. *Firm*
*Looks at Hogan challengingly*
*Wonders how upset Hogan will be about all if this since he hasn't reacted very well the last time Klink pointed out the possibility of thing's between them not working out*
*But he really doesn't see the point in forcing it when they might just be incompatible, no sex could be that good*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*listens to Klink's words*
*doesn't say anything for a few minutes*
*looks thoughtful while he considers everything*
"You've got some valid points there. I can see how not being genuine comes across as manipulative. Can understand why you don't trust me too. I get it. But have you considered by me admitting I've manipulated you, it means I can't do it anymore? Manipulation only works if the person in question is unaware of what's happening. It's like robbing a bank - you don't call ahead and tell them what you're planning."
*sighs*
"I am being honest with you when I say those things. If you don’t believe me for whatever reason, I'm sorry. I can't help it if nobody ever told you were sexy before I said something."
*looks Klink in the eyes*
"Look, when I first arrived, I didn't know what kind of person you were. I was...I was scared to say anything in case you turned out to be a fanatic. I didn't want to be shot. You talk a good game; it took me longer than I'd like to admit to realize you weren’t evil. By that time, it felt too awkward to say anything. The only reason I told you the truth is...is...hell, I don't know anymore."
*throws up his hands in frustration*
"Maybe I just felt I owed you that much after all the trouble I've caused you. I don't have the slightest clue what I'm doing here, okay? I'm just as much in the dark as you are. All I know is I'm constantly confused and worried and stressed and scared all at once. And damnmit, I'm so tired of lying. I want someone I can be completely truthful with. Someone who understands where I'm coming from and won't ridicule me for being human. The confident, cocky, all-knowing commander bit gets old pretty quickly. Unfortunately, that's who everyone else expects me to be."
*downs the rest of his wine*
"It’s completely understandable you don't want to feel like you're kissing a little boy. But if I'm acting like that, please tell me. I don't realize when I'm doing it because nobody else has the balls to say anything about it. Regarding you being the center of my world, I - shit, how do I put this?"
*runs a hand through his hair*
"I'm...I'm showering you in affection because I love your grumpy butt. Yeah, you irritate me and get on my last nerve sometimes, but I'm drawn to you. I can’t control what I feel. There's times when I wanna punch you, times when I wanna kiss you, times when I wanna shove you down onto a chair and suck your dick. There's even times when I wish you'd drag me into the bedroom, tie me up and have your wicked way with me. I wouldn't mind taking orders from you in the bedroom if you're willing to experiment - it gives me a chance to not be in control for once. Truth be told, those last two things sound like a great idea right now."
*meets Klink’s challenging gaze with one of his own, his cheeks bright red from admitting such things out loud*
"How's that for honesty, huh?"

[Oberst W. Klink]

*looks at Hogan thoughtfully*
Well i like it better when you give me a piece of your mind like that than when you shower me in affections... It feels more familiar
*Gives a small sheepish grin*
*Then gets up and comes around the table to Hogan*
*Halfsits on the edge of the table and takes Hogan's hand*
I want you to be yourself around me, to be completely truthful...
I can't guarantee that I'll like what I'll see but I'd rather not like what I see than never getting to know the actual you.
*Looks into Hogan's eyes*
So please stop to always think so much of how I'll react to something you do. You don't need to stress about that. It's ok to do things that I don't like, that won't mean that I'll suddenly hate you as a person. There is no reason to be so worried.
*Kisses his hand*
Relax
*Pauses for a moment then the frown returns to his face*
But you also have to accept that I can't just trust you 100% from one day to the next. I want to trust you but that will take time to really get to know you.
Also I don't agree that manipulation doesn't work when you know someone is prone to do that... *Sighs* You are too good at this, it makes me paranoid to think about how many ideas you've planted in my head and I only realised it way too late
*Pulls his hand back and crosses his arms unhappily*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*cocks his head to the side*
*gives Klink a playful grin*
"So what I'm hearing is, do a 50/50 split between them. Got it."
*gives Klink’s hand a gentle squeeze*
"I know you want me to be completely honest and be myself. The honest part is easier said than done, but I really am working on it. I've been pushing myself to tell you the truth about things so I don't have keep lying about them. If I'm overwhelming you, I apologize."
*sheepish expression*
"That’s good to know you won't hate me. I'm sure I'll still do things you don't like - that's pretty much inevitable - but my goal is to do less of them."
*nods*
"I understand. Nothing happens overnight. In time, though, I hope you'll know me well enough to know if I'm telling the truth or not. And if you should catch me in a lie, feel free to call me out on it. Old habits might surface from time to time on accident."
*rubs the back of his neck*
*looks embarrassed*
"Uhhh...I, I...yeeeah, I doubt you want the answer to that. Might be best to let sleeping dogs lie."
*touches Klink’s arm*
"On a different subject, how was your day without me harassing you...I mean, brightening it up?"
*winks*

[Oberst W. Klink]

*is glad the tension has slipped again*
*Grips Hogans jaw and gives him a teasing kiss flicking his tongue over his lips*
5 days of peace and quiet... I think I'll throw you into the cooler permanently
*Grins and then clears away the soup as it's cold by now anyway*
*Serves the main course, Braten with Klöße and redwine sauce*
*Also gets out a bottle of heavy red wine with it*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*enjoys the kiss*
*shakes his head in amusement*
"Peace and quiet? Here? That's terrible thing to say."
*smiles*
"Guess I'll have to make a few extra visits to your office then. Gotta make up for lost time, you know."
*chuckles*
*thinks it's cute when Klink teases him*
*can also give as good as he gets*
*licks his lips when he looks at the food*
"Wow, this looks delicious. Danke."

[Oberst W. Klink]

*grimaces at Hogan's plans*
Please don't...
*Is pleased that Hogan seems to like the food*
I thought we'd celebrate your return to barracks 2
*grins and enjoys his food*


*After they finished the small desert takesnhis glas of port and gets up*
*Walks around the table and sits on the edge of the table directly next to Hogan*
*It shows off his long legs and narrow waist*
*Circles the Port in his raised glass and watches it as if it's super interesting*
Now... I've heard you have another surprise for me?
*Can't keep the expectant grin from his face*

[Col. R. Hogan]

"I make no promises."
*voice turns gloomy*
"Yeah...Barracks 2..."
*had hated being in the sickbay but loved his stolen moments with Klink each day*
*resolves to ask his kommandant later on if there's any way he can stay in here until he heals*
*quickly pushes his gloom aside so as not to kill the mood*
*smiles and enjoys his food*


*watches Klink sit on the edge of the table after dessert*
*licks his lips*
*swallows hard a few times*
*the sight of those long legs and that narrow waist on display like that just does things to him*
*Is Klink posing on purpose?!?*
*Yes, yes he is...that grin says it all*
*is not used to Klink being a tease but he can work with it*
*eyes are dark from lust*
*his libido is what's doing all of his thinking right now*
"Yes."
*voice comes out high-pitched*
*blushes*
*clears his throat*
"I mean, yeah, I do. I have two of them. It's just...you...I can’t focus too well when you're doing that."
*gestures to Klink's elegant pose*
"Can we move this to the couch before I embarrass myself? Or maybe your room so we can stretch out on the bed? I'd like to be comfortable while I give them to you."
*carefully pushes back his chair, revealing a noticeable bulge in his pants*
"Also, I need a chance to get rid of the stiffness I currently have, if you catch my drift."

[Oberst W. Klink]

*is immensely satisfied by Hogan's reaction*
*Which shows in an even wider grin*
*And a slightly predatory look in his eyes*
*He'd love to just pick Hogan up bridal style and carry him to the bed then savage him*
*But the reality of him being almost 50 and Hogan weighing at least 80kg won't allow for big romantic gestures like that...*
*So instead he bends down to him and starts to unbutton Hogan's shirt while he lets his lips ghost over Hogan's then towards his ear*
*Nibbles his earlobe and neck*
Bedroom then?
*Whispers in Hogan's ear*
I've been craving a different sort of dessert all week
*Kisses his neck once more then pulls Hogan to his feet*
*Gestures towards the bedroom*
*Then leads the way*
*Takes off the uniform jacket on his way and carefully hangs it on a hanger in the bedroom while he waits for Hogan*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*thinks Klink’s grin is a beautiful thing to behold*
*but it's the predatory look he sees that makes him shiver slightly*
*is perfectly fine with being the prey for once*
*wonders what all Klink has in mind*
*breathing speeds up as Klink does things to him*
"Yes please. You're killing me here!"
*whimpers slightly at those words*
*Klink isn't the only one who's been having thoughts like that, it seems*
*grabs his crutches after he's standing up*
*hops as fast as he possibly can towards the bedroom*
*possibly setting a new speed record*
*two can play this game, though*
*closes and locks the door*
*hops over to the bed*
*points a finger at Klink playfully*
"You play dirty, Wil. That was so not fair what you did to me out there and you know it!"
*fingers tremble as he undoes the button of his pants*
*starts to pull them off, revealing his erection*
*points to it*
"See what you did to me? What you always do to me?"
*resumes his task*

[Oberst W. Klink]

*purrs appreciatively when Hogan pulls down his pants*
*Hangs his tie over his jacket then strolls over to the bed without hurry*
*Pushes Hogan down on the bed then helps him pull the pants over the cast*
*Runs his hands along Hogan's legs while he does it*
*Then kneels over him and pins his wrists to the bed*
*Starts kissing him passionately*
*Then moves the kissing along his neck and down to Hogan's chest towards his nipples while he runs his fingertips lightly down Hogan's side and then unbuttons the rest of Hogan's shirt*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*eyes become hooded the moment he hears the sound Klink makes*
*thinks it was seductive as hell*
*did not know Klink could purr!*
*breath comes in heavy pants as he’s pinned to the bed*
*passionately kisses him back, enjoying the feel of their tongues dancing together*
*is enjoying seeing Klink being so sure of himself*
*whimpers softly after his wrists are released*
*is still enjoying having his kommandant on top of him, though*
*manages to carefully remove his shirt while still lying down after a bit of a struggle*
*tosses it near his pants*
*is still gonna carry out his plan, but is temporarily waiting because he wants to see what else Klink will or won't do*
*reaches up to unbutton Klink’s shirt*
*speaks in a husky voice*
"I wanna see more of you, sir."

[Oberst W. Klink]

*shudders when Hogan calls him "sir"*
*Thinks its weird that this excites him so much, when Hogan has called him sir for years and it didn't do anything for him*
*Stops Hogan from unbuttoning his shirt by pinning his hands down on the mattress again*
*Bends down to kiss him again but only lets his tongue quickly flick over Hogan's lips before he pulls back with a wicked grin*
*Admires Hogan's naked body underneath him*
You promised me a gift...?

[Col. R. Hogan]

*shivers when Klink holds him down again*
*he can deal with being a prisoner if captivity comes with these kind of perks*
*softly moans as Klink teases him*
"So I did. Promised two of them, actually."
*looks Klink up and down*
*licks his lips*
"Can I...can finish stripping you first? Please?" *the last word comes out in a rough tone* "Or watch you do it instead? 'Cause either way, I'm gonna embarrass myself if I have to keep looking at you half-dressed like this."
*his eyes become hooded again and he's breathing heavily*
*the idea of Klink giving him a striptease is erotic*
*squirms a bit to take some of the pressure off of his aching cock*

[Oberst W. Klink]

*grins his predatory smile again*
*Still has Hogan pinned and bends down to slowly lick his ear and bite his ear lobe*
I like it when you say please *purrs into Hogan's ear*
*Then lets go of Hogan's hands to remove the suspenders from his shoulders*
*takes of his shirt and undershirt*
Better?

[Col. R. Hogan]

*squeaks in surprise*
*Goddamnit, that purr is gonna be his undoing!*
*eyes are nearly black from lust*
"Not really..." *those two words came out high-pitched* "You just made my problem worse!"
*feels like his heart is beating so hard that it's gonna break his ribcage*
*whimpers* "Pl, please...please sir, I wanna see you fully naked."
*pants*
"Holy shit..."

[Oberst W. Klink]

*he could come into his pants right then and there when he hears Hogan beg*
*But he'll be damned if he lets this be over so fast*
*Still kneels over Hogan's thighs*
*His cock twitches as he thinks about how Hogan can't even really fight back with his broken leg*
*His heartbeat is so fast he feels dizzy and his breath is heavy but he's determined not to show it*
*Trails his fingertips down Hogan's chest again*
*Slowly*
*Towards his cock*
*But then stops*
What do I get if I let you see me naked?
*Enjoys it immensely to be able to string Hogan along like this*
What's in it for me?