I Need to Apologize (Explicit)

[Oberst W. Klink]

*pours*
*notices Hogan removing his jacket from the corner of his eye but keeps looking at the glasses to not spill*
*glances at Hogan when he starts talking*
*notices he's there topless*
*nearly loses grip of the bottle*
*pours some on the table before he manages to set the bottle down*
*chokes a little*
H-Hogan, W-Where is your ....
*notices the bulge in Hogan's pants*
... shirt ?
*his mouth becomes dry as he looks Hogan over*
At this rate we'll never finish this bottle
*his voice is rough and his heart is racing*
*involuntarily reaches out to Hogan as he admires the strong shoulders and muscular chest*
*heat pools in his neither regions*
get up *whispers* let me look at you

[Col. R. Hogan]

*breathing becomes ragged as Klink checks him out*
"I didn’t wear one. Or underwear, for that matter. I wanted to give you easy access to me if you wanted it."
*eyeballs Klink’s pants*
*wouldn't even care if Klink bossed him around in this moment because he's so turned on now that it almost hurts*
*hearing Klink’s voice sound that rough isn't helping*
*answers in a low, raspy voice*
"Yes sir."
*gets to his feet*
*walks over to Klink*
*bites his lip*
*pitiful whine escapes his mouth* 
"Please...please, I need you. Please!"

[Oberst W. Klink]

*a shudder runs down his spine when Hogan calls him 'sir' in that raspy voice*
*swallows dry*
*his world narrows down on Hogan as he comes closer*
*all other issues forgotten*
*runs his fingertips down Hogan's side*
*his heart beats so hard it might explode out of his chest any moment*
Verdammt, Hogan *low coarse voice* when did you become such a mess?
*but he's already painfully hard himself*
*locks his fingers in Hogan's waistband and pulls him close by his belt*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*shudders as Klink touches him*
*smiles from ear-to-ear when Klink pulls him close*
"I've been a mess ever since I first laid eyes on you; I just kept it hidden. Spent a lot of nights getting off to thoughts of this, though. Thinking about touching you, picturing you touching me...
*swallows dry*
"...and now my dreams have true."
*kisses the pulse point on Klink’s throat*
"Let me pleasure you, sir. I'll give both of us what we need."
*lightly nips it*
"Or do you wanna do it? I don't mind taking orders; it's a relief not to be in charge."
*eyes are practically black from lust*
*now he is hard enough to hurt*
*is seriously concerned he might embarrass himself*
*his last word comes out as a husky whisper*
"I can't hold back much longer. Bitte..."

[Oberst W. Klink]

*the picture of Hogan getting off while thinking of him sends another shudder through him*
*he didn't know his pulse could speed up even more*
*shuts his eyes and exhales hotly when Hogan kisses him*
*puts the monocle in his pocket then runs his fingers down the smooth skin of Hogan's back*
*his other hand is still locked in Hogan's waistband to hold him close*
*lets his hand glide up again until his fingers disappear in the thick black hair*
*at Hogan's last sentence he gently pulls his head back by his hair*
then shut up and start kissing me!
*crashes his lips on Hogan's*



- much later that night -

*has his nose buried in Hogan's hair who dozes with his head on Klink's shoulder*
*holds him tight*
*thinks that it all was probably worth it*
*glances at the alarm clock*
*caresses Hogan's cheek to wake him*
Rob, time to leave...!

[Col. R. Hogan]

*rolls onto his side in his sleep*
*snuggles up next to Klink*
*sighs happily*
*feels a light caress on his cheek*
*opens his eyes and yawns*
"Huh? Wha...what's going on, Wil?"
*enjoys how his body is still singing from all of the things they did earlier*
*is not happy after being told it's time to leave*
*brain is too tired to come up with an eloquent protest*
*so he lets his inner child out to play instead*
 "But I don't wanna goooo. I wanna stay here with you, where it's all warm and comfy."
*burrows deeper in Klink’s arms*
"It’s not like my men are gonna ask any questions; they're too busy being grateful I'm over 'the bad news from home'. The last thing they'd wanna do is rock the boat."
*looks up at Klink*
*widens his eyes*
*pouts, doing his damndest to look cute*
*his messy hair only adds to the effect*
"Come on, just this once. Pleeeeeease?"
*sticks his lower lip out a bit more*
*wraps his arms around Klink's torso in a hug*

[Oberst W. Klink]

*at first he's a little endeared yb Hogan's snuggling up to him but that quickly fades when annoyance takes over*
Can you cut the act, Colonel Hogan?!
*shoves him away*
Do you want me to feel like a pedophile?
You're a full Colonel act like it!
*rolls his eyes in annoyance*
I have no intention of raising any suspicions about us!
*disentangles himself from Hogan and gets out of bed*
It's already been suspicious enough that you came to see me two nights in a row *grumbles while he puts on his robe*
you may use the shower if you want but then you'll see yourself to your own bunk before someone asks themselves what kind of chess is that entertaining!

[Col. R. Hogan]

*is annoyed that his act didn't work and that he has to get up*
*and irritated that everything he does seems to piss Klink off*
*it pricks at his pride*
"No, of course not. I don't want either of those things to happen."
*gets angry when Klink shoves him away*
*speaks without thinking*
"Well, excuuuse me for trying to be playful! I can't help it if nothing I do seems to make you happy!"
*starts looking for the pieces of his uniform*
*finds them*
*gets dressed while talking*
"I mean, you shove me away every time I try to show you any kind of real affection, you dismiss my genuine feelings as sweet talk - do you actually think I'd say and do these things for just anyone? Or submit to them? Because you'd be dead wrong. I have never, ever willingly submitted to anything or anyone in my life. Not even in boot camp; I only did it there so I could graduate. With you, on the other hand, it's completely voluntary. I enjoy doing that because it's fun. I love our playfights and taking orders from you during sex for the same reason."
*is too wound up at the moment to be embarrassed about admitting those things out loud*
"Hell, I originally came in here tonight to try and help you get over whatever's making you so damned touchy. Thought maybe you felt like a fool or something after I came clean. If you did, I was gonna reassure you that you're not. And that's the God's honest truth too. As distasteful as the idea is, I've also considered trying to tackle some of your paperwork for you. Figured that might help ease your burdens a bit."
*puts a fist on his hip*
"I'm not stupid, okay? I know exactly what I can and can't say to my men if I wanna avoid making them suspicious. What excuses they'll buy, which ones they won't. For crying out loud, I have a bachelor's in psychology! I'm very good at manipulating people. Much as I hate to say this, I have a natural talent for it. But that doesn't mean I like doing so. Nor does said talent make me a mind reader!"
*face is flushed from anger*
"I've been doing my damndest to show you who I really am. And I don't mean Colonel Hogan, your Senior POW Officer; that's a persona I've developed. I always act like a gigantic flirt around women so nobody figures out my secret. Really don’t wanna lose everything I've worked for - maybe even be shot - because I'm a...a homosexual. No, I'm talking about the man you would've known from the start if we'd met under different circumstances. But you keep switching between hot and cold all the time, so I never know what's gonna set you off. All I'm asking you to do is be honest with me, the same way I've been doing with you whenever we're alone. If you can't even trust me enough to do that, I don't think this is gonna work out...no matter how much it'd break my heart to let you go."
*sits down on the bed to tie his shoes*

[Oberst W. Klink]

*is surprised at Hoagn's strong reaction*
*asks himself if he's really being touchy...?*
*watches as Hogan dresses and rants pulling the robe closer around him protectively*
maybe you shouldn't try so hard to make me happy?!
*is a bit defensive*
maybe you could stop overwhelming me with your exaggerated affections, maybe then it would be easier to believe you
*didn't notice that he just admitted he's overwhelmed with the situation*
Maybe you could show some respect by waiting until I ask for your help instead of cornering me all the time!
And no, I don't trust you, the man who has managed to completely fool me for two years. Admitting that you have a degree in manipulating people doesn't exactly make it better!
*while he was just annoyed at Hogan's childish act before he's now growing angry realizing just how much agency he lost in the past few days*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*listens to Klink’s words*
*wonders if Klink is irritating him on purpose or if he's just not explaining himself properly*
*throws his hands in the air*
"I can't, okay? That's part of who I am. I like to make people I care about happy - and why you’re still on that list right now, I don't know. But you are. If anything, you keep moving up it."
*pinches the bridge of his nose*
"I'm not exaggerating them. If anything, I'm doing the exact opposite. Again, this is part of who I am."
*fustrated tone*
"Well, maybe I wouldn’t have to corner you if your stubborn ass didn’t always wait until the last minute to ask me! Most of the time, I'm scrambling to come up with a plan with almost no notice at all! You just...you act like it's illegal to ask for help, like I'll think you’re stupid for asking me. News flash: I wouldn't."
*sighs*
"Look, I had to get a bachelor's of some kind if I wanted to become a pilot. But the only classes with an opening at the time were psychology and art. I don't know squat about art, so psychology it was. I can't believe you'd actually hold that against me."
*gives Klink a "Really" look*
"How can you still be mad about the tunnel thing?"

[Oberst W. Klink]

*feels caught about avoiding to ask for help*
*but that only fuels his defensiveness and anger*
I wouldn't have to ask for help ever, if you wouldn't insist on getting us both in trouble two times a week!
And in all honesty, I really don't know why you still care about me, same as I don't know why I don't just show you the door!
For a moment there i thought the sex might be worth the trouble but my life was one hell of a lot easier before you decided that you were in love with me!
I wish we could just go back to being enemies! *frustrated*
Jacking off to the image of you was a lot more rewarding than reality...*bites his tongue*
*he shouldn't have said that... all of it but definitely not the last thing*
Scheiße *murmurs*
Hogan, look... *doesn't know what to offer to make up for saying such mean things*
maybe we're just not a good fit... * he doesn't want to hurt Hogan but he really can't think of anything positive about their situation*
I've always liked you as a friend... maybe we can just forget everything that happened and .... *stops because he knows there's no going back... it wouldn't be as it used to*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*growls*
"I'm trying to end this war, not be stuck here forever! That comes with a price tag!"
*wonders how he can explain things so Klink understands where he's coming from*
*but doesn't get a chance to before Klink says his next 4 sentences*
*an anguished expression appears on his face*
*he can't believe the person he loves has just said such things to him*
*feels like he's been stabbed in the heart*
*has put so much effort into trying to build a relationship, only to be tossed aside yet again*
*doesn't hear the offer to be friends because his pulse is pounding in his ears*
*forces himself to have a neutral expression*
*speaks in a icy tone*
"So that's how you feel, huh? Fine. If you wanna be my enemy instead, you've got it. Have fun getting out of trouble from now on all by yourself." *empathizes those three words* "I'm through trying to help you out. No wonder nobody loves you if this is how you treat people!"
*rises to his feet*
*icy tone becomes a genuinely injured one*
"I wanted so badly to make this work, you know. Clearly, that was a mistake. Guess I was a fool for trusting you not to hurt me like everyone else has."
*walks toward the door*
*looks back at Klink once more after he reaches it*
"I'm grabbing my cap and jacket from the living room, then going back to my barracks. Hope your mental image makes you very happy!" *hisses the words 'mental image' in a venomous tone*
*knows he shouldn't have said anything after his second sentence*
*but is feeling too overwhelmed with various emotions to care*
*exits the room before he says anything worse*

[Oberst W. Klink]

*suddenly feels very cold and scared when Hogan left*
*knows he really fucked up*
*and as much as he regrets having hurt Hogan, and as much as it stings that he probably just blew his last chance at love, the terror of being on his own, with a spybusiness under his nose that he has to keep covered is much stronger*

- 06:00 the next morning - roll call -

*hasn't slept at all that night but instead emptied the bottle of wine while taking a loooong hot bath to make the cold terror go away*

*walks out of his quarters without the usual vigor*
*also doesn't scream "SCHUUULTZ RAPPORT!" from the stairs as he usually does*
*walks up to Schultz with a gloomy expression and dark circles under his eyes*
Schultz! Report? *his tone is as usual but the slight hangover doesn't allow for screaming*
*searches  for Hogan in the rows of prisoners*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*didn't get any sleep after leaving Klink’s quarters*
*spent the night alternating between feeling ashamed of himself and being livid*
*did a lot of quiet - but still angry - crying too*
*has decided that Kinch will be permanently giving the Senior POW Officer reports*
*but he'll still do the paperwork*
*told him that after Schultz woke them up for roll call*
*is now standing in his usual spot*
*part of him wants to apologize for saying such cruel things to Klink*
*the other doesn't because of how utterly betrayed he feels*
*knows he should at least get on cordial terms with Klink again, but refuses to do it*
*has no desire to speak with someone who only thought of him as a fuck buddy and nothing more*
*especially when he gave Klink his virginity in that area*
*resolves to avoid him at all costs*
*figures if Klink wants him for an enemy, he can accommodate that request*

[Col. R. Hogan]

*is wondering if Klink has become a drunk after seeing the bags under his eyes*
*notices how he didn’t yell today*
*exchanges salutes with the big shot*
"All prrresent and accounted for, Herr Kommandant!"
*drops his voice to a whisper*
"Sir, I think Colonel Hogan might be sick. He does not look so good...his eyes are all puffed up. Is he allergic to anything, Herr Kommandant?"

[Oberst W. Klink]

*has noticed Hogan's puffy eyes and feels terrible for hurting him like that*
*but he won't address it as he thinks it's best to keep his distance at least for a while*
*therefore he is angry that Schultz points out the thing that is entirely his fault, as it makes it even harder to ignore*
*angrily whispers back, so that Hogan won't hear and be even more hurt*
Shut up Schultz! Why would I care about Colonel Hogan's eyes?!
DISMISSED
*saluts to the men and turns on his heel*
*stomps towards the Kommandantur*

[Oberst W. Klink]

Schultz:
Oh Boy.... *looks after Klink*
does he have a mood...

[Oberst W. Klink]

Kinch:
*as the men shuffle back towards the barracks he catches up to Hogan*
Sir, we didn't have the chance to talk before roll call... Can I ask some questions, in your office, maybe?

[Col. R. Hogan]

"Sure, Kinch. Follow me."
*heads into their barracks*
*leads the way to his quarters*
*motions him to go in first, then enters*
*closes the door*
*sits at his desk*
*motions to the bed*
"What can I do for you?"

[Col. R. Hogan]

-Out on the compound-

*drives up to the gates*
*snarls at the guard to open them*
*feels satisfied as he watches said guard scramble to obey his orders*
*drives into the camp*
*smirk fades when he thinks about how much he despises the Luftwaffe*
*especially that dummkopf Klink*
*not to mention his favorite prisoner, Colonel Hogan*
*is absolutely certain that blasted Ami is Papa Bear*
*decides he can worry about proving that later on*
*has bigger fish to fry right now*
*gets out of the car*
*slams the door shut*
*stomps toward the Kommandantur*

-In the Kommandantur-

*enters the building*
*marches right past Hilda's desk without so much as a hello*
*throws open the door to the inner office*
*steps inside*
*slams the door*
*points a finger at him*
"Klink, I always knew you were a traitor! Now I finally have my proof...proof that will earn me a promotion and you a date with ze firing squad!"
*slams a fist down on the desk*
"What do you have to say to that, Herr Kom-man-dant?"
*growls the last syllable*